Like I said before, I have a hard time being home. It is like I purposely put myself in this sinkhole that I cannot plug. Yet when I am far away I yearn for this loving & depressing place.
We dragged eerie in this home and it hasn’t escaped. I don’t know if it ever will …
You know how heartbroken it is to see your mom come home from work with tears?
My mom leaned on my head and shoulder for support. For me to validate her feelings with the things that she had to deal with.
Sometimes I feel that I am not enough.
At least not yet anyways.
Donald Glover aka Childish Gambino, you are a fucking genius. If you listened to his new album Because the Internet, you need to check out his script with it. Go to becausetheinter.net and you’ll see the script with videos! “SECOND NOTE TO READER: The visuals have no sound. They are meant to be played while the song is playing.” He has a fucking script for his album *so mind blown.* I can’t help but replay the visuals in my mind while I listen to his music. Check out this link if you want to go to his Deep Web Tour (: I’ll be seeing him May 3rd in LA
Been a fan since he performed at UCLA for Bruin Bash 2011<3.
One of my favorite songs from his album. I would post his music video but I think this lyric video is hilarious.
Throwback joint tonight! Oh yes, Stussy x LVRS x Theophilus London launch party on 08.24.12 was poppin’. Yeah I said it, “POPPIN'” LOL. There was a line formed outside of the store since it was “packed inside.” The man of the night stepped outside and invited ladies to drop in. 21 wristband, check! Food and beverages provided by Pabst Blue Ribbon, Boxed Water, and Dante Fried Chicken. Free BOOZE, WATER, & FOOD (although I only had one in that list and it’s not water or food). I checked out the LVRS x Stussy collection but not that many were left from the capsule collection. What I love most about this collection was the hat. Red LVRS embroidered in front, Stussy in gold on the side, and two gold stars on the other side … clean (best believe I copped). Photo creds to my friend Michelle and thanks for accompanying me at this launch party!
Ps. My favorite song from him is Big Spender ft ASAP Rocky. Lowkey he looks like Dj Jazzy Jeff from back then. haha Enjoy (:
Although I love hip hop and rap, R&B/slowjams are my shit. I was trying to find songs on how I felt and what I was going through .. boy that was hard ): but now I have an official playlist! Enjoy (in no particular order)! Keep in mind that the songs may not exactly be 100% for grief and loss but I have interpreted and relate to it that way.
1. So Lost – Melvin Gutierrez
This was one of the few songs that was in my iTunes (phew), I was really trying to make a playlist of whatever music I had.
2. I Miss You – Aaliyah
“Now you’re gone and I’m lost without you here and now. but I know I gotta live and make it somehow”
3. It’s So Hard to Say Good-bye to Yesterday – Boyz II Men